Today was the first day of my internship at the aviary. I think I am actually depressed because despite the fact that I thought all summer that this is what I wanted and I was so looking forward to it so much I didn't even really enjoy it. Maybe I'm just tired because I got up before 6 and haven't slept through the night in weeks but I just don't even want to go back tomorrow...
In the area of more positive thinking I got to have a delicious Thai dinner with one of my best friends and I am playing with her adorable puppy. I plan to do my breathing meditation before bed instead of this morning because i got up so early.
On my lunch break I was re-reading Kevin's blog about inner peace on selfgrowth.com (link at the bottom of the page) and today I am concentrating on the line "most importantly, you have to realize that only you have control over your emotional responses and reactions and that they can be changed for the better."
This is probably my biggest weakness. I let my emotions run my life. Right now I am surrounded by loving family & friends and starting a new job. I should be happy. I should be putting myself out there and starting to date. But instead I'm still stuck on a boy who broke my heart. I let these emotions take over my whole life and that needs to stop.
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