Day 5

This week has been rough, starting the new internship and finding it wasn't as much of a new and happy start as I had hoped and also feeling under the weather for part of the week. However, there were also some good times and extra time for prayer, meditation, and laughter. I was able to see many of my friends and share meals with them. I also got to see the movie eat, pray, love again and I feel that it is pretty inspirational to how I feel. It just makes me feel good when I watch it.

I still cry about aaron almost daily. I also still don't sleep through the night from the events of this summer, though I bought a new dream catcher to maybe help with some of the nightmares. I am also going to church tomorrow with a friend to see if they offer any kind of counseling, as I feel that I may have hit a point where I shouldn't do this all by myself. There is too much real dark things to deal with. I have been told that I have a lot on my plate right now, so I guess I just need to put my head down and work hard.

Today I plan to continue to get ready for the yard sale I hope to have to rid my life of junk and bad memories (anything that doesn't sell will be donated), spend some time knitting, do some yoga, and get some actual work done. I am almost finished with The Prayer of Jabez (though I will probably re-read it) and may turn my attention to starting The Purpose Driven Life.